He made a puppy cry.
He made a rainbow crap its pants.
Spill-O was two hundred sixty pounds.
And it wasn't all quivering sensitivity.

Every deal he'd made with himself
had gone sour as the smell under his arms
after a day of sitting around.

By the waterfront,
he rode shotgun into the gleaming
question mark of midnight,
into the hotel drinks that would blot the question.

Divorces, deaths,
it seemed nothing would derail
his tedious pursuits.

But every song sounded wrong.
Every consolation sounded like an insult.
Every dream landed him at a funeral.
He could not soothe or be soothed.

All the food that did not nourish Spill-O
became hateful to him.

"Okay," he said,
"If the cosmic bus won't jump the curb
and grind me to pieces, then fine,
I'll be that bus."

Colin Dodds grew up in Massachusetts and completed his education in New York City. He’s the author of several novels, including WINDFALL and The Last Bad Job, which the late Norman Mailer touted as showing “something that very few writers have; a species of inner talent that owes very little to other people.” Dodds’ screenplay, Refreshment, was named a semi-finalist in the 2010 American Zoetrope Contest. His poetry has appeared in more than a hundred publications, and has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize. He lives in Brooklyn, New York, with his wife Samantha. You can find more of his work at www.thecolindodds.com.